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“I hope you’re happy, but don’t be happier.”

I’ve been repeating this phrase a lot lately, especially to Nat, who spends a lot of time talking to me. It’s from Olivia Rodrigo’s song Happier, and honestly, I’m not sure how much I’ve annoyed him with my favourite line—or with all the gossip I’ve picked up while trying to convert him into a Swiftie. 😂 Sometimes, I wish he were right here with me. I know we’d have so much fun together because I genuinely enjoy annoying him for fun. Even when he criticizes me (for whatever reason), it makes me laugh. I never take it personally.

Nat told me today that the first episode of The Last of Us is now streaming on HBO. I’m a fan of the game, even though I’ve never owned a PlayStation. My love for it started with watching gameplay on YouTube. When I heard it was being adapted into a TV series, I couldn’t wait to see it.

Unfortunately, I don’t have HBO, so I won’t be watching the series tonight. Nat has been looking forward to watching the series since yesterday, but because I won’t be able to watch it, he has decided not to watch it too. He said:

“I’m going to wait until you can watch it.”

🥰 Nat is sweet, isn’t he?!

However, if the roles were reversed, though, I’d probably watch it first and spoil it for him. I’ve told him countless times that I’m now a penguin—a betrayer. 🤣

Earlier today, I was supposed to organize my project, but I ended up spending an hour fixing my internet. It’s been spotty since yesterday, and it drove me nuts trying to figure out what went wrong. I had to dive into some Googling, watch a few YouTube videos, and hope for the best. Thankfully, I managed to fix it myself!

Moments like this remind me why being hyper-independent can be both a strength and a challenge. I’ve always been the kind of person who tries to fix everything on my own (not sure whether it is stupid or smart, haha). From plumbing and assembling furniture to troubleshooting network issues and even lifting heavy things—I’ve done it all.😂 I hardly ask for help. If I do, it means the situation is beyond my ability to handle it on my own. It’s not about being stubborn; it’s about knowing that if I want something done, I’ve got to learn how to do it myself first to see my ability. Sure, I’ve failed plenty of times, but every mistake has taught me something new.

Now, about my project—you’ve probably heard me mention it a few times here. I know you’re curious, but I’m not ready to reveal the details just yet. Trust me, I’m excited about it too! Nat was the first person I told about it over a year ago, and recently, I asked my best friend to collaborate with me. So for now, Nat’s the keeper of all the secrets, and let’s just say he knows a lot about me. I joke that I might have to kill him one day to keep my secrets safe. 😂

As much as I enjoy sharing parts of my life here, there are certain things I choose to keep private. What you read on this blog are the moments I’m comfortable sharing—the ones that reflect the side of me I want you to know. But there are other things, deeply personal ones, that belong only in my journal.

So, with that, I’ll leave you for now. Thank you for being here and for letting me share these pieces of my life with you. Until next time.

X, Hani. ❤